Luke 21:34 "Be careful, or your hearts will be weighed down with carousing, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you suddenly like a trap. 35 For it will come on all those who live on the face of the whole earth. 

Today in church our pastor preached on the Coming of the Lord.  She talked about how we need to watching for the Lord. Not be weighed down with all the other stuff we have going on.  She talked about drunkenness and how it doesn't just mean booze. It refers to anything that takes up too much of your time: video games, beer, pull-tabs, whatever.  All those things take away from what you are supposed to be doing for the Lord.

This is how I feel about teaching right now.  It is taking up too much time.  It's my drunkenness and there isn't much I can do about it.  I'm not even talking about the classroom things like lesson planning, teaching, and grading papers.

It's all the other stuff.  Professional development, PLCs, action research, Instructional Leadership Team (ILT), data review, team meetings, AVID training & PD, Professional Development Plans, Teacher Evaluation & observations, and my own desire to stay on top of technology. 

It's too much.  It's drunkenness.  It's taking away from the teaching.  It's taking away from my family.  It's taking away from friends.  It's taking away from my passions.

What's the solution?  Maybe I need take some time off to get away and reevaluate.  Maybe I need to step back from things (non-profit board, church council).  Maybe there is something else in education that needs to call my name.  Also, I've got two business ideas in my head that keep pushing to the front and provide excitement.  

God has a plan. This is where I am now.  This plan is frustrating.